Diary Entry – 18 August 2020

My beautiful daughter, just in case, I want to mention that I tell you each day that I love you and that Jesus loves you! I know you won’t remember, so I thought I would just add that in here.

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You are growing so well, at 10 weeks old I notice new sounds and movements. Oh, how I love watching you grow. You are our perfect gift from our Creator, our God. The Bible says that He knew you long before any of us were alive. And let me just also mention that God waited for the perfect time. You are, as your Oupi says, the first baby in our family born in Christ – meaning that your parents were born again before you were born. I pray for wisdom and ability to strive to ensure that you are brought up in the ways of the Lord our God.

Things are always uncertain in the world, my little one. This year, with the virus, we sometimes feel scared. I often remind myself that God has it all under control and our best interest in His will at hand. People are talking about “end of days,” and it truly seems so. The things written in God’s Word seem to point us to that conclusion in this time. I am going to be brutally honest; I get terrified at the thought. You have just come into this messed up world, and my heart’s desire is to have a life with you. I have often cried about this possible reality. Your Oumi told me to just concentrate on each moment spent with you. I so enjoy that; I really enjoy every moment! Thank You, Heavenly Father for this amazing experience and every moment with my baby girl! It’s rather strange, I love doing everything for you… even changing your Nappies.

So, Nanna gets a video call with you once a week. Nanna suggested we use telament to help you with your tummy. It seems to work mostly. I am still trying to figure out what not to eat to assist with your wind re-action. So far, I have realized that cutting out onions, coacoa, and meusli has assisted slightly.
We are having some sleepless nights. You sometimes cry all night. Daddy has been such a champion. He even holds you and walks up and down with you. I am sure it is also to try give me a break, but I battle to “take the break” I just sit and watch, in concern and at the same time contently. How is that even possible? Concern for you, feeling helpless that I cannot take your discomfort away. And contently because watching your Daddy be so involved just makes me feel all fuzzy and warm inside!

Nanna was telling us on the video call today that Nanna, Oupa, and your uncle Dom will be coming for a visit in September. They live in KZN. They can’t wait to see you!

Since I have you to think of, I find myself feeling a bit stressed. Maternity leave is coming to an end soon. Oumi helped me try to get my thoughts into perspective. Your Grandpappi, too. I spoke to my boss; I have extra leave days. I am going to use them to extend my maternity leave. I feel the need to have more time with you! We also spoke about me working from home. Then mommy gets to look after you. My boss will hopefully confirm this week. I believe that my God has answered my prayer. God also gave me the courage to ask because I often just cower with certain things. I would like for you to see out of this that God wants to be a part of absolutely every part of your life.

When I was chatting to aunty Margarette last week, I mentioned that any woman that experiences having a baby can certainly not deny God’s existence. Having your own child is truly a miracle!
Aunty Margaret got to see you on Saturday, your Daddy helped her with her new phone. ☺

We also went to Oumi and Oupi for lunch on Sunday. Chavo and Scarlette are very interested in you. I haven’t let the doggies be by you too much, they might lick you and then we need to clean you. 😁
Aunty Ora and Uncle Tony popped in there to see you too. Aunty Ora held you while telling us stories. She is so funny! She was mentioning how clueless a new mommy was back in the day. There was no Google, and it’s kind of just expected that a woman knows what to do when they have a child. Those day’s mommies relied on their mom’s to help and advise them on how to do things.

I am watching you sleep while writing this long entry. You are truly wonderful and such a blessing!
I best go get the nail clipper and cut your nails quickly. 😋 (makes it easier to cut your nails while you are sleeping)
I love you my girly! Mwha!

Bible verses at the bottom of my book:
Nehemiah 8:10 The joy of the Lord is your strength!
Psalm 118:24 This is the day that the Lord has made. We will rejoice and be glad in it.
Isahia 40:31 Those who trust in the Lord will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles.
1 Corinthians 2:9 “No eye has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind has imagined what God has prepared for those who love Him.”
Habakuk 3:18 I will rejoice in the Lord! I will be joyful in the God of my salvation!

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