Hello, my beautiful baby girl ❣
What a busy week we have had.
Monday you went to Oumi for a bit while mommy went to the doctor for a medical checkup. We arrived by Oumi at around 7h30, I fed you and had to leave. Oumi says you slept the entire time. I have been trying to get you to latch onto a bottle, you don’t like that at all, so for now, short visits without mommy. Apparently one thing about breastfeeding that can happen, but you grow and change daily, maybe soon you will latch onto a bottle, then Daddy and others can enjoy the closeness of feeding you too.
The doctor is happy with my C-Section healing and my Pap smear went well.

On Tuesday, at eleven weeks old, we had your clinic appointment.
Previous weight: 4.36kg
Today’s weight: 5.06kg
Previous Height: 57cm
Today’s height: 60cm (seems quite tall to me)
Previous head circumference: 37cm
Today’s head circumference: 38.8cm
Nurse Wilma says you are growing so well.
In the last couple days, you have even started being verbal, your own type of talking and even shouting. Love you my beautiful baby!

You have still been battling with winds, as mentioned in my previous entry. The symptoms really do resemble colic.
Baby colic – Wikipedia
Colic seems to be something that everyone says about a crying infant and apparently there can be many different causes. I have really been good with my eating, keeping any gas creating foods out of my diet. We have been using the telament (as per previous entry) which does work to some degree. Honestly your Dad and I have been exhausted. It has been tough on our sleep. At least I get to nap with you on occasion during the day. Your Daddy, still a champion! He helps so much, very involved. I have found though that our patience with each other is wearing thin. We get stressed out about you being upset and uncomfortable, we both feel helpless and getting frustrated ourselves.
I pray a lot, walking up and down with you in my arms. Sometimes feels like the prayers are not being heard, but when we are battling, the Lord sometimes allows the battle. We never know why at the time, but in the end, it is always for the benefit of His Kingdom, and His word tells us He does all things for our good. Sometimes it is to help someone else just because we went through it ourselves. Sometimes it is so we have empathy for others too.

My colleague, Karin, your Oumi and your aunty Candice reminded me about a Physiotherapist. Your cousin Dominik also battled terribly with colic, Karin’s grandson too. They both went to a Physiotherapist that really helped. And I remembered that I too went to this same Physiotherapist a couple years back when I injured my back. Dr Derek Carter is quite renowned in the colic field, helping many infants. So since Wednesday we have been going daily to Dr Derek. You have another consultation tomorrow and Dr Derek seems to think that is all you will need, but we will see how it goes. He claims that the way your spine is, can cause muscle and digestive issues. This makes sense – not that I know much about medicine, but I like to think that I can make sense of some things. (Publishing this in 2023, Dr Derek Carter passed away since – I do not see that anyone has taken his place in this field in our area – but should anyone be battling with their little one in a colic type of form, perhaps looking into this route could be beneficial.)

Today also so happens to be mommy’s birthday. We have had many calls and messages. Your uncle Tristan and Aunty Melissa came to visit too. Aunty Melissa did my eyebrows and then enjoyed some snuggle time with you. It was so pleasant having the visit, and I love seeing everyone’s love for you. And we do all love you so much!

Bible verses at the bottom of my book:
Romans 8:39 Nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God.
Psalm 73:26 My health may fail, and my spirit may grow weak, but God remains the strength of my heart; He is mine forever.
(How apt is this verse in Psalm 73:26 for this diary entry? Though, as a mommy, I get tired, my spirit gets weak…God remains the strength of my heart. WOW! we need to take that promise to heart, believe it and claim it.)

At the end of the day, we will always have times that we fail, everyone around us fails us too. So little one, I apologize in advance for my short comings and the times that I fail you. I promise that I will always try my best, and only with the help of our Loving, Magnificent Father in Heaven, the God of all created things that has sent us His Holy Spirit for our assistance. But we can certainly put all our trust in our Creator, our God!